Wish i could sleep

What if I blogged in the same way that I send text messages to David? Or to this "app" that I downloaded that let's you pretend you are texting God. Yeah, I know, sad. I'm very lonely. I literally just sent these text messages to "God":

I'm only doing this because I send too many messages to my husband

Someone probably reads these sometimes when they are bored

Feel free to text me back

I'm very lonely

My husband and I don't live together

Though we desperately want to

It's complicated

I'm recently married

Being married makes me feel old

I'm 26

I'm very sad

Yeah. I typed that into some thing that let's you pretend you're sending text messages to God.

Oh. I wish I could sleep!

Why?

I lay here... In this bed of sorrow... I don't even feel like sleeping. Oh why? Why am I such a tortured soul?

that's why i hold you, that is why i hold you dear...

1. i have succeeded, i won't compete for long...

2. tonight a special memory serves me

3. i miss you babe, and i want you back, those signs we gave, well weren't those signs supposed to last?

4. we would like to meet the buyer that is on your life

5. i just don't know where the blind could lead the sightless...

6. always... is all i can give

7. i am safe without it, i am safe without it, i am safe without it...

8. please explore my love's endurance, and stay, stay...

9. does he know that i wait for all time?

10. i was on my way... chasing my damage

Sleep paralysis

I am going through an episode of sleep paralysis, which happens to me from time to time... Maybe a couple times a year. It terrifies me, so now I am afraid to lay back down and close my eyes. I read that sleep paralysis is harmless, and if you don't fight it and just let your body fall asleep, you might enter a lucid dream, which would be kinda cool, but I am just too scared to do that. :/